Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Because Facebook is being a bitch to me I'm gonna do a survey :D

Just say whatever pops up first ;)

Snow Ball
Rain Bow
Tornado Wind
Summer Love Justin Timberlake
Jon Travolta
Mike Myers
Banana Hammock
Dizzy Spin
Car Park
White Milk
Peppermint TicTac
Placebo Effect
Camera Whore
Brother Hood
Hate Revenge
President Obama
Football Club
Rap Cling
Pop Corn
Rock Star
Punk Funk
Sex Orgasm
Death Black
Baby Baby Baby Oh
Duuuude Where's my car?
The end is a new beginning

Stuck.

I can't move.
I'm stuck.
I can't go backwards.
Not to memory lane.
That hurt's.
I can't move forward.
Memory lane pulls me back.
I'm stuck here.
Confused.
Insecure.
Right here where I feel I don't belong.

I need a push, prod, something.
I need your hand.
I need your warmth.
And maybe. Just maybe.
That thing that keeps me stuck.
That keeps me frozen.
Will melt away.

-Gamen Ngu :)

Wow. I made that up in like 5 minutes. Dude I'm proud of myself. I deserve a pat on the back, don't I :D

Day 28 - The person who changed my life

Well if you read the post I just wrote, you can kind of see that I tried to change myself, although that didn't work very well. The people that has really made an impact in my life are my friends :) Especially the ones who have stayed in the small Asian group that we are in (or maybe you guys are too lazy to move). I am grateful that you guys haven't left. I am grateful that you guys haven't left me :)

To be honest I like the small group we are in. I feel like we are more closer and that I can trust you all more than ever. And of course I can be me :D

What's there inside you. Shines through to me.

When I was in primary school. I absolutely hated it. I always thought that I had something wrong with me. What was it about me that made everyone want to leave me? I just didn't understand. I got ditched during primary school twice. I realized that people are horrible at that day and age. And that's when my confidence went downhill. This is probably why I also have such a big fear of loneliness and everyone leaving me.
When I was in primary school I had a plan, that during high school I wouldn't let it happen again. I would start a new life. I wanted people to like me. I wanted attention. It's quite hard for someone as plain and ordinary as me. So I just kind of put on an 'act' that I was a nice and honest person. Yes, people liked it, even I started to like it about myself, but still I wasn't getting the attention I wanted. Oh, I was so naive back in Year 8. Because sure enough I got what I wanted, for the wrong reasons. And guess what? I hated that too. So now I am who I am now. Confident enough to say whatever I want that would make someone laugh(usually me because I laugh at my own jokes...) but still I can't say what I really want to say. I still keep all of that inside me unless you ask me or force it out of me. I'm not the person who will strike up a conversation about myself because yeah as I said I'm just a plain ordinary girl, that I doubt anyone would want to talk or know about. And if you do ask me a question I will straight forwardly tell you the truth. So please, don't accuse me of stuff I dislike.
I might say things that will revert other people's attention to myself. Only because I'm just saying things that I believe are wrong.
When someone that has got a girlfriend/boyfriend and flirts with someone else. That shit fucking pisses me off. You do it and I will tell you off. I don't care if you think I am being mean to you. I don't care if you won't like me. All I care about is that your girlfriend/boyfriend won't have to deal with the anxiety that they get from thinking they are too boring for you. They get the wrong ideas and everything makes them insecure. You have to know and understand how fucking much it hurts when the people you love leave in some way or the other. Well I do. It fucking kills. Therefore I want to prevent that shit happening. If I lose a friend or two. I don't care. I'm not the one that is getting effected by this, sure the friendship might be on the line but I reckon the relationship you have with your significant other is more important. Far more important because I'm not important at all :).


So yeah. just a bit of background information about myself that may answer some questions on why I am like I am. And if you still have some questions don't be afraid to ask, I won't bite :D
I am the bombshizzle :)

Monday, August 30, 2010

Inspiration :)

Heya :)

Man after having that dream I so badly want to draw or do an animation piece re-enacting it. It seems so pretty. But the way I draw is too cartoonish and the feel of it will just be gone ): so probably not...

Day 27 - The friendliest person I knew for just one day

Haha. I'm very gullible so the people that I think are friendly, are people like salespeople that come knocking at your door. Every single time whenever I open the door and they start talking to me, I fall for their game. I just keep listening and become interested in what they want to say except for *ahem* a certain race that overrules the telemarketing industry. Anyways I reckon when I grow up, I shouldn't be trusted to open the door to these people, because I'll probably spend a fortune on all these knick-knacks that probably don't work. lol. Oh and plus I think its just plain mean to close the door on someone who has made the effort to come to you instead of you to go to them.

So to my future room-mate or hubby, please restrain me from those 'friendly' people because one day they could be a huge threat to me or more importantly your wallet. lol.

And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand why my heart is so broken

AIYAHHH. What to do? Can't do it, I don't have the courage, or the confidence to. I'm too scared what you will think. I'm scared what everyone else will think. I spent all this time confused, thinking that I was happy, that I enjoyed life as it is. I know there's something missing. There's something I want. Something I need. It's out of reach though...

And there has been certain events that just makes me even more confused and just gets me thinking.imagining. Something that I think ought to exist but never will.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Day 26 - The last person I had a pinky promise to

Uhhh. I don't remember the last person I pinky promised to. But I promised myself that I would write one of these letter things once a day. Uhh well who failed at that? I should have finished these letters ages ago. Anyway it will be soon enough that these will finish. and this page will forever have crickets chirping on them after.

Like the snow, it just quietly keeps accumulating

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- my tears won't stop
And so I wish
That I had never met you

For the past couple days, I've been having this reoccurring dream.
It's at night and I go out to explore a forest. When I reach an open field in the middle of the forest, I look up into the night sky and gently snowflakes starts to fall. I become hypnotised by its beauty and fall asleep.
When I'm asleep I just know it that there is some sort of presence that is watching me. Then I feel that there is someone is holding my hand. It feels so warm and familiar. I just don't want to let go. But, of course like everything else in my life eventually they do.
When I wake up I'm surrounded by a blanket of snow. I get up and see footsteps all around me and one that leads away. Instinctively, I follow those footsteps. I'm practically running because I just want that warmth again.
It leads me out of the forest and up a hill. As I ascend the hill, I just get colder and colder. When I reach the top I see that from beyond the hill is just flat ground with a beautiful blanket of snow with a trail of foot prints that lead to the horizon. I see on the horizon the tiniest speck. By now I'm running. I really want that warmth. The running feels never ending. But eventually I reach just a few meters away from the silhouette. There I start to collapse from the cold, and just before I black out once more I see him turn around and smile warmly at me. But his smile falters as he sees that I'm collapsing.

I wake up after this point every time. I want to know what this means. I want to know what happens after. Because I've never had such a 'normal' dream before. Yes, this is classified normal. It doesn't involve death, dolls, loneliness or teachers asking to add up bingo scores :)
I really want to know...

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Just sharing this because Bubz told me to :D

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Near, Far, Wherever you are.

Aww man I feel like watching Titanic now, after listening to this person play 'My Heart will go on' on the piano perfectly :)

Align Center


I can't wait until 2012, when they re-release Titanic in 3D :)

Day 25 - The person I know that is going through the worst of times

Awww. I'm not sure I know anyone that is going to crack any moment from shizz going on. But if you are I just want to let you know I'm here if you need to vent or have a shoulder to cry on. I hope that everything will work out soon :) Just remember. Don't worry, be happy!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Day 24 - The person who gave me my favourite memory

Haha my favourite memory... well I have lots. But since it is the 25th of August today I will say the one that happened on this day last year. Don't be freaked out guys, I'm not super smart and have an awesome memory. I told you if something significant happened on the day I will remember the date :)

I'm the sort of person that loves parks and gardens. There was this specific garden I wanted to go to. I went there with him. And it was just so peaceful and calm. I was so glad because I could just be myself and not have a worry in the world. Which was a great feeling because I was feeling so insecure at the time. The garden was so pretty ^______^
I went there in December again because I was craving food that was close by to the garden. And we went back there because we're cool like that :D

It's a shame I'll never be able to go back here with you again.

Yes, guys Adelaide has something as nice as this place.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Somethings I learnt about today

1. My eye has been twitching A LOT lately.

2. When I eat toast, I eat it in such a manner that I like to make shapes from my bites. My favourite shape to make is Australia.

3. That the human body is not 70% water but 78% :O

4. Some people have green coloured diarrhea LOL.

5. Apparently, I want to fly like Peter Pan. Dance like MJ. Swim like a mermaid. Play tennis like Federa. Sing like Elvis. Have abs like Taeyang. And be as big as your penis which by the way isn't very big ;P

Day 23 - Last person I kissed

Umm. There has only been one person I kissed. Well technically no. There has only been one boy that I've kissed. The other 3 were girls so yeah... Don't worry I'm not gay, it was just a party game. Called 'Suck and Blow' LOL the name doesn't really help my situation here. Well guys since I'm not gonna write about the person above because, yeah all I would say is something that I'm not gonna tell you guys because that's private stuff ;) Anywaysss in this 'Suck and Blow' game you get a piece of seaweed. It's really thin so you can suck it with air and it will stay. so the aim of the game was to pass around the piece of seaweed via sucking and blowing. Occasionally the seaweed fell and well we end us pashing. LOL. Okay I'll stop before one of you gets a nosebleed ;D

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Day 22 - Person I want to give a second chance

Maybe I should give the person mentioned in Day 21 another chance. But the thing is I don't think that the other will be willing. So I might as well give up trying to be friends with you.

There has been a lot of clockwork going on in my mind for a while now, thinking and pondering about seconds chances. It will forever be in my head, because I know, it's not gonna happen. But just imagining it, is realistic and good enough for me.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Day 21 - Someone I judged by first impression

When I first met you. You were quiet and kept to yourself. I kind of liked that about you, you were calm and easy to get along with. But that was just my first impression. This might have been because it was your first year of attending a new school. It can be very daunting to be in an environment full of strangers. I offered my hand of friendship and it kind of clicked. When you started to get more comfortable with your surroundings you just turned into an obnoxious brat that didn't care about anyone else but yourself. It sickens me then and now. And now, you kind of look at me like a stranger, you treat everyone else like a friend. But when you talk to me it's kind of like you're intimidated or something. Oh yeah, the only reason why you would talk to me anyway is for work or if I talk to you. Its just a short answer anyway and then you revert your attention to someone else. I don't even know what I did to you. You're a totally different person. I really dislike that selfish bastard you are now.

PS. Sorry, I've been very pissed off lately. It's just all this shit that happens in my head, so if I snap or something don't worry its not your fault :)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Day 20 - The person who broke my heart the hardest.

Well, there has only been one person that has broken my heart. It wasn't that broken though because at least we could still be friends :) Anyway I already write about this dude so yeah no needs to talk about it any further.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Shawty's got boobies like POW OH POW

OMG. I just realized I left my DS on all day D: Lucky it was in sleep mode and saved some energy. But you know what would have sucked? If it turned off... because I was playing Chrono Trigger and just finished a whole segment/storyline and I'm not sure that I saved. If it turned off I would have had to do that all over again D: Special Thanks to Andy the Boobie for killing Magus for me this morning. Or else I would have been stuck and give up the game entirely.

Another game I've started to play recently is Rhythm Heaven. It's so fun :D In the beginning I hated 'rhythm rally', where you play ping-pong to the beat. At first I was hell noob and probably missed every second ball but I got better, and even started to like it. I think I only started to like it because I found a game that pissed me off even more. And that was Moai-Doo-Wop. Like fricking hell. It's just so GRRRRRR. And you stoopid seagulls pooping on me ain't helping either :P And so I failed it 3 times on purpose (well not really... I really tried but failed it 3 times) just so that cafe bistro lady will help me skip it. Well guess what lady? I can't beat the stupid 2nd Remix. I dunno if its my cartridge or the game but sometimes it lags and I can't do the rhythm right and that sucks balls ): Maybe I'll just fail that a few times too :D

I also started playing Pokemon Mystery Dungeon - Explorers of the Sky because I'm so cool. Well actually because my Pokemon HeartGold doesn't save ): I was so looking forward to playing that... Anyways I'm an Eevee, it said I have a Jolly nature. I wonder if that's true. I was also an Eevee when I played Mystery Dungeon - Red Explorer Team. But then they said I was naive, which is pretty true, lol. Hopefully I'll evolve into like an Umbreon or Espeon :) Oh yeah and my partner is Charmander because Charmander will eventually evolve into a Charmeleon which will involve into a Charizard, which is one of the most epic Pokemons' ever made :D

Anyway I'll stop with my nerdy, dorky game talk. I hope you guys had a nice day.

Oh yeah something embarrassing happened today, I was in the state library, it's really quiet in there... well I kind of farted, lol just kidding. Nah, I got the hiccups and this particular hiccup was really loud. The next one was also pretty loud which was followed by a big burp. Everyone looked at me. I should have just turned my head and blame it on the person behind me LOL.

I shall be off now.
Tah Tah~

Day 19 - Someone that pesters my mind. Good or bad.

You're in my mind a lot even though I sometimes think you're not supposed to be, but even though you don't know or realize you are on my mind, you sometimes just put a goofy smile on my face :) Like today, I was on the bus home and something reminded me of you and I just kind of smiled and laughed. I think people were staring at me, I probably had like a really peddoe smile on or something because they looked at me weirdly. Or maybe I just have a weird face and its hard to believe that one would exist LOL.

Hmmm. Only if you knew what I was thinking. And for you to be able to make me smile a creepy peddoe smile is quite an achievement ;)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Day 18 - Person I wish to be

The person I aspire to be is someone that is more confident. Yeah, I'm one of those people that are confident enough to do things that drunk people do. I like being silly :D But the thing I'm talking about is in the more serious manner. There are thing's that I just can't do because I know someone is gonna get hurt one way or the other, so I just leave it and hope that it will solve itself. Or maybe little fairies will come along and make it all better :) It doesn't work that way, Gamen.

So next time I'll try to risk it for the biscuit :D

Saturday, August 14, 2010

It sucks to be WEEGIE ):

I just want to run my fingers through her long blonde hair ;)

I'm not stalkerish at all... I swear :)

I have been watching you a lot lately, and aww you are so cute. I think I'm falling for you all over again *shiny eyes*

Anyways I have been very bored lately and have been reading random comics. Just wanna share a few funny ones with you :D

Here are some Happiness and Cyanide ones :D

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Friday, August 13, 2010

Gamen's Super Special Sexy Awesome 100 :D

1. My name was supposed to be Carmen but my mum and dad were too fob. Therefore my name came from my Chinese name. 'Gamen' and 'Gamun' see very creative :D

2. Apparently I have tiny ears. Like my pinkies are bigger than my ears (for normal people they are the same size) so I have come up with the decision that I am disproportional.

3. I walk pretty fast because as a kid I always had trouble keeping up with my dad and adopted walking faster than usual.

4. Because I walk fast I am always in front of my friends, therefore I walk backwards so I can talk to them.

5. I can remember dates really easily, as long as something significant was/is on that day. eg. birthdays.

6. That date memory thing can sometimes be very bothersome because I still remember things that I shouldn't remember. eg. day I lost my first kiss, day I lost my virginity(LOL. I kid I kid but I reckon that day will stick to me)

7. I am a righty, but I use my left hand to open jars.

8. When I was 7. I was playing 'Blind Man's Bluff' crashed into my bed and got like 6 stitches on my forehead.

9. I haven't ever gotten stung by a bee.

10. I haven't gotten chickenpox.

11. So far I am not allergic to anything, but we shall see one day I might get stung by a bee and be allergic to that. I hope that day won't come.

12. I believe that there are parallel world's and we can one day travel to them.

13. I have watched porn LOL.

14. I find those demeaning sexist jokes hilarious, even though I am a girl.

15. I reckon if I was in a relationship, I would be the man.

16. I haven't seen any of those legendary movies. eg. Lord of the Rings, Avatar, Star Wars, James Bond, Fantastic 4, Spiderman 3 etc.

17. Whenever someone does not pronounce my name properly I will automatically correct them because I am so used to it.

18. Although my neighbour of like 15 years still pronounces my name wrong. I'm too afraid to correct them after all these years. I don't want to embarrass him ^^"

19. I played as a magistrate in my year 5 school play.

20. I like the smell of incense.

21. I have crashed into a tree while driving.

22. I somehow managed to keep driving perfectly fine even though I was crying at the wheel. Twice.

23. Oh. I'm still on my L's by the way. I've been on them for more than a year. I CAN'T BE STUFFED DOING MY HOURS!

24. When I was a kid I liked to be squashed under a queen sized mattress. Don't ask.

25. I am about 165cm tall. And weigh about 46kg.

26. I dislike eating vegetables. I love my meat though :D

27. I dislike sleeping in. I just don't like that groggy feeling.

28. I have only moved houses once. And we moved across the road.

29. When I was a kid, in summer I enjoyed running around the house naked :D

30. I like going to the beach just to listen to the waves crashing onto the shore.

31. I haven't broken any bones. Although in grade 7 I thought I broke my thumb when I was playing cricket.

32. My thumb does not stand straight. It kind of naturally bends backwards.

33. People find the thumb thing weird and gross. I can also force my thumb to touch the wrist of the same hand.

34. I fail at winking with my right eye.

35. I prefer eating crabs over lobsters.

36. I am Asian. Yet I have not eaten tofu. And it has only been recent since I have eaten Migoreng and even with that I have only eaten it like 3 times.

37. I once had a pet dog for one day, we had to return her to the original owners because she didn't like us.

38. The second language at my primary school was Vietnamese. I was there for 8 and a half years yet all I know is how to count, some animals and food.

39. I used to collect coins, until I dropped them all behind my wardrobe in my room. The wardrobe is too large to move so I couldn't be bothered anymore.

40. I also tried to collect stamps. But we never got any letters with stamps on them so I also gave that up.

41. I can't blow bubbles from bubble gum.

42. I can fit in the lockers at my school and also get locked in them with plenty of room still left. This might not sound all that great but if you see the size of our lockers you would be amazed.

43. My favourite colour is green. And I dislike the colours pink and purple.

44. My nightmares all have a theme in common and they are something to do with loneliness.

45. My best childhood friend is my cousin. We have known each other since we were only a few months old. We attended to the same kindergarten, primary school and currently the same high school.

46. I don't know how to swim :D

47. I believe in the afterlife or reincarnation. I believe in my past life I was a boy that died at a young age ):

48. I have read the Harry Potter series at least 4 times.

49. I enjoy listening and reading horror ghost stories. But I dislike watching horror.

50. I'm pretty good at doing Sudoku puzzles.

51. I like the feeling of Déjà vu.

52. I dislike getting the hiccups because I get them at least every 2 days.

53. My hair is very black. Most people with black hair reveals to be very very dark brown hair. But my hair is actually black. Some people mistaken me as international because of this.

54. I like to make out shapes and pictures from clouds. I have made out pictures like Michelangelo's "The creation of Adam" , a tsunami, dragons, bunnys, a uterus... yeah I'm strange.

55. There was a time where I thought I went crazy. I just randomly started to cry and then started to laugh for no apparent reason.

56. My favourite type of games are RPG and racing games. Some of my all time favourites are 'Secret of Mana', 'Final Fantasy Tactics Advance', 'Mario Kart' and many others :)

57. When I was a kid, I thought the Pokemon Hoot-hoot evolved into Ho-oh...

58. I am quite gullible...

59. I love Youtube :D if I find a suspicious video I will pause it and read the comments just to check its not one of those screaming and POP ghost picture videos.

60. I wish Anime characters were real, because they are so sexy, I totally would make love to them :)

61. I like to draw, but not in front of people.

62. I have almost chopped off my finger before when I was chopping an apple. I still like chopping apples to eat.

63. When I was little there once was a time when I used a sharpener to sharpen my finger :)

64. When I was a kid I liked to 'cook' with mud, dirt and grass.

65. I like to do gardening, but I don't do it very often. I was so sad when my pea plant died ):

66. My favourite genre of music is RnB. Favourite band is Varsity Fanclub <3

67. I am more likely to fart than burp. Just saying.

68. I have kissed a girl... on the lips ;D

69. Hehe 69 ;)

70. Yupp. I'm immature, dirty minded and sick. People who find this out about me are very surprised.

71. I really enjoy reading :)

72. I am very indecisive but for some reason people make me choose whatever we are choosing.

73. My friends like to name me after food, when I was small my sister called me Caramel. My bestie calls me Yumcha, another calls me Gumbo, and another calls me Gummybear. I wonder if they want to eat me or something.

74. I get nosebleeds when I'm cold instead of when it is hot. Even so I still like winter the most.

75. I get a runny nose whenever I eat hot or chilli food.

76. I wouldn't mind being a teacher, but I wouldn't want my students to address me as Ms. Ngu. If you are Vietnamese you will understand why.

77. I'm not scared of insects and that. They kind of fascinate me instead. Except for giant millipedes, worms or centipedes. That shit shouldn't be allowed to grow that big.

78. My dad once found a giant huntsman spider in my room. Lucky I was overseas at the time. My mum and dad now wonder if my room is some sort of nasty breeding ground.

79. I have stepped on a slug barefooted. Yes it was quite gross.

80. I have never gotten period cramps before. I fear that when I am in labor it will hurt like hell.

81. I fear clowns and dolls. They just look way too creepy, I don't understand how children can enjoy them.

82. I just had fried rice and steak for dinner. So yeah I like to combine Asian food with Aussie food because I'm cool like that.

83. I really need to pee right now, but I'm too lazy to go. The toilet is only like 10 steps away...

84. The last time I peed my pants was when I was 7. We were at LeCornu and my mum and dad were too busy talking to the salespeople. I didn't want to interrupt them but in the end I peed my pants.

85. One of my most embarrassing moments was in grade 8. I went on a walk with my homegroup. And you know those poles that keep cars from driving right through? You usually leap over them like a frog yeah? Well I forgot that I was wearing a dress, tried to jump over the pole... the pole caught onto my dress and I was left swinging around...

86. I also dislike silence. It kind of scares me, it's like someone died or something. That's why I like thunderstorms at night. And also my dad snoring, its kind of comforting.

87. There's something about me that attracts mosquitoes. My record of mosquito bites was more than 60 when I was in China and Vietnam. My mum says I must have sweet blood.

88. I like to sing. But I'm not very good at it :)

89. I have been inside a casino even though I was only 15 years old at the time. It was because I was 'tall' and looked adult-ish. That's funny because everyone is surprised that I am 17 right now. They think I'm like 14 or 15.

90. On New Year of this year, I got bitten and scratched by a dog. I had to go to hospital to get bandaged and to see if I needed shots. It was a great start of the year :D

91. I actually like getting injections.

92. I have only recently discovered that I have a birthmark. It was on my back all along.

93. In year 7, when we did a chemistry experiment. We were using litmus paper to find if something was acidic or a basic. One of the exercises was to find out what our saliva is. Everyone else was basic while I was acidic.

94. I caught 'Missingno' the glitch in Pokemon Blue and Red. It evolved into a Rhydon. My sister caught the other glitch 'M' the little sprite was a human but it evolved into a Kangaskan.

95. Despite me being Chinese, I cannot use chopsticks properly. Even now I still use a spoon for my rice :)

96. I use to tie string to a plastic bag, and roll the string onto a pencil or something. When it was windy I would fly the plastic bag as a kite...

97. I had an imaginary friend named 'Alice' when I was 3.

98. When I talk to strangers, I kind of talk in a higher pitched voice. I think this habit was because I wanted to leave the impression that I was a sweet girl.

99. I used to have the habit of cracking my knuckles, but I stopped because everyone kept telling me off.

100. I space out a lot. So if it looks like I'm staring at you, I'm most likely spaced out. Unless you are good looking then ;)

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Day 17 - Someone from my childhood.

Ah my dearest cousin :) I have known you since you were a month old, there was an instant click between us as we shared the same interest at the time. Yes, those lights sure are fascinating aren't they?

Thank you for all the times we had together. Good or bad because that's what makes us tighter :D

And of course we all know that I am the taller one :)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Follow the leader :)

I am very very bored. And since my friend's are doing this, I thought might as well do it too because I'm a try hard wannaBEE. BUZZ Buzz :)

Start at the very beginning, what’s your name?
Gamen :) but people call me lots of other names. Yumcha, Gumbo, Gayman, etc

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yes I do. But they aren't skinny on me at all ):

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?
stalk you :D

Does the person you like, like you back?
I like you :) Do you like me?

What did you do last night?
Read xxxHolic

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yeah. Because I was so noob at the relationship sort of stuff, I thought there was something wrong with me :D

Are you your mum’s favorite child?
Probably not.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
I am quite content, with what's going on right now. I would be ecstatic if I finally finished my Research Project and get my P's.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
No don't think so, mummy's sleepy soup worked fine :)

It’s Thursday night, where are you usually?
At home, doing homework.

Your Christmas list consists of?
You jumping out naked from a giant box ;)

What movie is in your DVD player?
I haven't used that DVD player for like 2 years... I use my laptop now, and there's nothing in there.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
I would stay here :)

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Going high from laughing with the bestie :D

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
Everyone has their share at some point.

What’s going on tomorrow night?
No idea, I'll wait for it to come to me.

Do you know a lot of people with the same phone as you?
Nope, my phone is awesome :)

Is your hair curly or straight right now?
Straight.

What do you really think of Starbucks Coffee?
I've never had it... I don't even know what starbucks looks like.

Does anyone love you?
In a romantic way? Umm no I don't think so. But as a friend or family, I sure hope they do

Want to be taller or shorter?
Taller yo :)

What are you listening to?
Varsity - Love Like This
Ooh girl, I just wanna talk a little.
Wanna get with you a little.
Wanna get to know a little bit more about this thing.
You got what I need.
So what will it take for your love?

When was the last time you really laughed?
Today :D

Do you listen to music every day?
Yahhh.

Last song you heard?
Love Like this Duhh.
Love. I need a love like this.
So love. Give me a girl like this.
To love. Someone to really miss.
Her love. Is enough, enough~

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female?
Male.

What’s the last thing you said out loud?
Well I was singing Love like this...

How was your day?
T'was okay.

Describe how you feel right now in three words:
hungry, annoyed(stupid hiccups), musical

If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say?
Make me that guava thing from masterchef :D

Has a girl sat on your bed before?
Yeahs.

Plans for Saturday?
Saturday, Saturday... nope I gots nothing probably do homework ):

Who was the last person besides yourself to touch something on your face?
I think my sister poked me...

What was your dream about last night?
I haven't had any dreams lately ):

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Right now? Not really. But in general I'm coolios

Where were you at 9 am this morning?
At school. In room 32.

Everything happens for a reason?
Yeah, it all depends on the decisions we make.

Are you too forgiving?
Yeahh. My friend was trying to come up with a scenario for me that would make me hold a grudge on. She couldn't ever find one, I 'hypothetically' forgave them all.

Do you think people talk about you?
Nahh, I'm not really interesting enough to be talked about.

What do you carry with you at all time?
Phone, wallet, keys, iPod.

Do you and your parents get along?
Yeah, we're cool :)

This time last year, were you single?
Nah uh.

Have you ever been searched by the cops?
Individually, no. But in a car with my family, yeah.

Do you always wear your seat belt?
Yes.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?
I don't think so.

Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now?
Too bad he's an anime character ):

Ever sang a whole song without missing any lyrics?
YEAH :D Heaps of songs dude.

Has someone close to you ever told you they were going to commit suicide because of you?
Nope.

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
Yeah. I guess I'm a better person now. I can open up more.

Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Nah, not really. It's their problem if they always see the negative parts of life and not the good stuff.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes, everyone makes mistakes.

Where were you at 10:17 pm last night and what were you doing?
I was sitting where I am currently sitting doing the exact same thing. Blogging.

Other than this, what are you doing?
Listening to music and MSN.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yupps

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
Haven't gotten into a big argument for a while.

Last thing you ate?
Triple Chocolate Icecream :D

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Outings, Food, Holidays :D

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Morning :)

Has anyone sang to you?
LOL. Does karaoke count?

How often do you lose your voice?
I've only ever lost it once.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
Yupp. We shan't explore that any further :)

Be honest, do you like people in general?
I guess so.

Does anybody hate you?
Probably.

Is there something you’re looking forward to next month?
Days off :)

Does it bother you when people get drunk?
Nah not really. As long as they don't spew then we are good to go (Y)

Are you mad at someone right now?
Nahh.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Very often.

Will tomorrow be a good day?
I guess so. I have awesome and wonderful friends ^___^

Do you like hugs and kisses?
Sure do ;D

What’s on your bed?
Winnie the Pooh, Nutsy, Domo-kun, Pig puppet, Pillows and Blankets :)

Last person on your bed?
ME :D

Is there one person in your life that can always make you happy?
They come and go.

Day 16 - Someone out of state

Why hello there cousins :) I haven't talked to you guys since I was 10. It was around this time of the year that we went to visit you guys in Queensland. Those 10 days that I spent there with you guys was one of my most treasured memories. I mean it was pretty much a family reunion for all of us Aussie Ngu's and you know, it was really fun :)

I remember us running around with your toy guns and trying to shoot each other. Good times. And when we went to the Gold Coast, that was just epic. I wish we can meet up and catch up soon :)

Monday, August 9, 2010

Day 15 - Person I miss the most

I miss the person you used to be. I dislike the way you changed. Okay you might be back to yourself now but there's still something about you that really creeps me out. There's like a dark aura around you but you try to suppress it because you don't want others to worry, right?

>>I miss that smile.<<
I miss that laugh.
I miss sharing food.
I miss that soft touch.
I miss that warm look in your eyes.
I miss all those small little things you did to brighten up my day.
I miss talking about our day together and telling what was on our minds.
I miss talking to you about anything in the world and you wouldn't be bothered how strange I was.
I miss those pointless cute arguments that we had and in the end you won because I'm no good with comebacks.

Most of all, I miss you. So please, even if I can't have you. At least give me the other thing I missed most. Please, just smile :)

Good day sir. I said Good day!

Sorry that I haven't been blogging. I can't be stuffed, plus those letter things are becoming repetitive because in the long run they are all the same person. But it doesn't matter anyway no one reads my blog. I only have like 3 followers, because I'm so popularrrr yo :D
Anyways, today t'was a very very good day. Finally went to a cafe that I reallly reallly wanted to go to for a long time. It's called 'Chocolate Bean' and like everything is made of chocolate. DUH. I really do recommend you to go there one day. Oh wait. Two out of three of my readers did come with me today... Oh wells. We shall go again :D I crave more of those chocolate dipped strawberries :) So so so yummy ^______^

After we went shopping. And I realized that I really need a new pair of jeans. The problem with me though is that I want skinny jeans but if I wear skinny jeans they look like normal jeans on me D: CURSE YOU, no shaped legs. I also need new shoes. Damn HYPE doesn't have those Converse shoes that I wanted before. I also dislike that I have abnormally large feet for a girl of my size, can't get nice decent shoes ): and the times that I do find nice shoes they don't have my size D:

I had a very sad situation too. Guys, I lost my phone stylus ): I remember using it in Chocolate Bean. But after when I checked it was gone D: I asked those phone guys and they said the only way to replace my stylus is to buy one on eBay. Ughhh that's such a fuss.

But the highlight of my day was when I was walking home alone from Arndale. Some random hobo peddoe rode past me on a bike and said, "Hey, cutie." O_____O"
You may ask, "Why Gamen, that's not a very good thing for it to be a highlight of your day is it? Unless you are into hobo peddoes then uhhh yeah..."
People, people. I was A) being sarcastic. and B) it was the only compliment I got in a veryyyyy long time and it generally made me feel fuzzy inside... (Oh god no. I felt creeped out >_>)

Anyways I shall run off now to make people Happy! Because I am the magical man, from Happy Land, who lives in a gumdrop house on Lollypop Lane :D
Tata~

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Day 14 - Person I have drifted away from

I have drifted away from many people.
- Primary School Friends
- Maths School Friends
- Chinese School Friends
Yeah, you get the picture. I can't pick you guys out individually because you all made some sort of impact in my life. I can't really help that we drifted away. We are all different people in different environments and schools. Its hard to keep in touch. MSN won't do because it's not the same as when you guys are beside me. I just hope in the near future we will bump into one another :)

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Day 13 - Someone I wish that would forgive me

Haha. I don't think I've done anything unforgiving to anyone. Maybe I have but I think they have forgiven me. Well, I hope they have at least ^___^"

If you have not forgiven me for doing something in the past. I apologize for whatever silly thing I did that upset you. If it wasn't silly but serious please talk to me about it so i can fix it up or make it up to you :)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Day 12 - The Hated One

Hate is a strong word. Yeah, so is Love. But I see no point in hating someone. What will you get out of it? Just more negativity. And if its that 'sweet' revenge you all so want to give to that person. You might feel good about yourself. But you just destroyed the many other peoples lives that are related or involved to your 'sweet' scheme. How are you gonna live with that? Hate is just a burden. Why carry it? When you can just ignore it and get on with better things in your life. Like food or Love :3 Love has a point. It has a meaning. It brings happiness ^___^

So yeah there isn't anyone out there that I hate. Isn't anyone out there that has caused me so much pain that I still carry that pain around. Because people, it is so much more easier to forgive than to hold a grudge.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Day 11 - Deceased Person I Would like to talk to.

It would be you grandma. I never met or talked to you. I'm sure if you were still alive I would have loved you ^___^

Day 10 - Person that I don't talk to as much as I like

If I want to talk to you, I will. End of story :D

And because this is a short post . I shall write another even though that is cheating :)