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Day 9 - Someone I Wish to Meet

If I could meet anyone. I think I'd like to meet someone from the future. Wouldn't that be cool? Even though that would like make a huge void in time and space which will cause the end of the world LOL. Sorry guys I've read too much Tsubasa. ITS SO GOOD :D I hope there will be a sequel or something ^____^

Anyways. Yeah I would like to meet someone from the future and just have a normal chat with them. Then they will give me something from the future or something. And if its a guy we could like fall in love and shizz LOL. Dramatic much? Wait. I think they already made a story like that. Damn. I could have gotten like rich from a story like that :L WAIT the thing the person gave me. I can claim that I invented it and become heaps RICH. HAHA. Nahh. Copyright laws against someone from the future... I'm too nice to do something like that. I'd probably be guilty for the rest of my life lol.

To be or not to be?

LOL. SATAC books came in the other day and we just had a family discussion on what I will do in the future. Well I'm Asian so yeah in the end I was convinced to do Dentistry or Medicine. Wish me luck. lol. SO MUCH ASIAN PRESSSURE D:

Day 8 - Favourite Internet Friend

I don't really have a favourite, because generally people click on me. I don't click on them. See how popular I am :D LOL I'm just kidding. I have no friends. Because most of the time if someone talks to me on MSN generally its them asking about school work. Because yes I am Asian. And people assume that I do my work and that I am smart. Please people I'm really not that smart O___O. I can't even differentiate the usage between 'many' and 'much' nor do I know what the difference between 'affect' and 'effect' is. And if you know me in person you will understand if you heard me try to say 'analysis' or 'equilibrium'.

Anyways, for you people that like to talk to me because you want a nice chat. I enjoy all them times. If its on MSN I do enjoy our nice meaningless cyber sex ;D LOL. I'M JOKING. But yeah somehow or another there will be a funny dirty comment in there somewhere, knowing myself. lol. I love it if you draw things for or with me its so much fun :) uhh and if its on Facebook I do love it if you leave a wall post because I will feel special :) especially because I'll get a notification. And be like HOLY MOLY ONE NOTIFICATION!

lol. Ciao for now

Day 7 - Ex

There are so many things that I want to know, so many that I don't know where to start. There are so many things that I want to mention, again there are so many that I don't know where to start. I don't want to say anything that risks any friendships or relationships so I'll keep this clean-ish.

First and most importantly, I wish and want you to know that I LOVED YOU, I really did. So much it was bliss but so much it hurt. You must have thought that I didn't care or trust you. In fact, I did care. I did trust. And I told you that. As long as you didn't abuse that. It crushed me when you did. But in the end it was true. No matter what you did to me. No matter how much it hurt. I Loved you. And when you left me. I still loved you. I didn't want to cause you any more problems so I did the mature thing to do and we agreed that its better off if we weren't together.

And when I found out that you had already moved on. I tried to be happy for you. I really did. I mean you seemed so much more happier with her. And seeing you smile was good enough for me. It just hurt because not one of you told me, and you two were both my friends. Maybe you did that for my sake, but I don't know. Maybe if you told me I would have coped better. Because finding out myself just tore me up inside.

And now, we can finally be on talking terms again. I'm really glad but I'm really worried about you because you pretend like everything is okay but I can tell that its not. I just hope that you will come to the point of trusting me again to talk about how you feel. I missed those days when we just told each other about how our day was. Because then I knew what you were thinking. You probably don't realize it but you are very hard to read and mysterious.

I hope you will find true happiness :)

PS. Thank you for everything. I'll treasure all those moments that we had together. I just regret that they will never come alive again. But I will say this again. I hope it comes alive for both of us, for when we truly do find happiness :)

Day 6 - Stranger

Howdy Stranger.

I was taught not to talk to strangers. And a few weeks ago i got scolded by friends for approaching one of you because you looked lost and innocent. So I have nothing to say to you. Toodles :)

Day 5 - Dreams

Whenever or wherever you take me when I am asleep is some of the most fun and entertaining things that ever happen to me. So dreams don't fail on me, keep me interesting, keep me interested :)

As for you nightmares. I swear you were telling me something back in the time. I just hadn't realized that what it was at the time. But thank you, you sort of gave me the heads up that I would have soon became lonely. But it turns out that I wasn't as lonely as I thought I was. Because I had many wonderful people help me :D

And if this dream also meant as in my dreams for the future. I just hope I will lead a normal successful life. Just the normal things. Love. Family. Friends. Money. Work. Nothing special :)

Day 4 - Siblings

Thank you for all the times when I needed to vent. Thank you for all the times you made me laugh. Just thank you. I'm grateful having both of you here all my life. Because I know I would have been so lost and lonely without you two. So thank you. I love you guys :)

Day 3 - Parents

I know you care about me. I know you love me. But why cant you show it? Everything that comes out of your mouths are just pointing out my mistakes. I don't need to feel worse about myself knowing that everyone else in the room will know what I did wrong. So please. I just need some words of encouragement.

I love you guys very much. And I hate it when you guys fight or when you mention that soon you might not be around anymore. Please don't do that. I beg of you.

Day 2 - Crush

I don't really have anyone that I am crushing on right now. But all I know is that when I find you.
I'll love you with all my heart. And I can't wait until that time. I can't wait until our future love ;)

I dedicate to this unlucky unknown person this song.
Varsity Fanclub - Future love :)

Mmmmmm, Yeah, Oh-Oh

A couple of years
And I'm gonna know your name
It's like I waited for ya forever
And I know this might sound insane
But it wont be long
'Til we're gonna take this up
I'm talking about our future love

You're so far away
Maybe you're right next door
Got me picturing your face again
Something worth waiting for
I put all the others behind me
They don't live up
I know what I want
What I need to the T

Baby if they asked me
I would say I don't even know your name
And if they asked me
Does it change?
No, it don't change a thing
Cuz there's something about the way you'll love me
There's just something about the way you'll know me
That I cant explain enough
There's just something about our
Future love,Future love, Future love
There's just something about our
Future love, Future love, Future love

Walking hand in hand
Going for a second date
I can picture what you're wearing
And a kiss I can almost taste
The thought of all the ways we'll meet for the very first time
I can see the place, feel the love..
First sight

Baby if they asked me
I would say I don't even know your name
And if they asked me
Does it change?
No, it don't change a thing
Cuz there's something about the way you'll love me
There's just something about the way you'll know me
That I cant explain enough
There's just something about our
Future love,Future love, Future love
There's just something about our
Future love, Future love, Future love

Oh no
The minute you pull up next to me
We standing there like destiny
When it feels like you're fighting
Just to breathe that's when u know
The minute I pull up next to you
Suddenly I don't know what to do
Everything inside you says that I'm the one

Baby if they asked me
I would say I don't even know your name
And if they asked me
Does it change?
No, it don't change a thing
Cuz there's something about the way you'll love me
There's just something about the way you'll know me
That I cant explain enough
There's just something about our
Future love,Future love, Future love
There's just something about our
Future love, Future love, Future love

Day 1 - Best Friend

You really are one of the most beautiful person(people? which one I can't tell... I'm pretty bad at English) that I know :) Your cheerful attitude will always bring light even at the darkest of times. You always know what to say and has the best advice. Although sometimes I feel bad, there were so many times when I was down, and you were always there for me I felt like a burden. I know you said it was okay but still I apologize for my selfishness of only thinking that no one really cared about me, when I know you did. I always made up that excuse that I didn't want to worry anyone as well. Which was kind of true I guess. Haha. This isn't making much sense LOL.

Anyways, for you guys who know who I am talking about she is a very fat girl, that loves to roll around in all her filth HAHAHA. Nah, I will still love her even though she is a bit round. HAHAHA. I'm kidding this girl is beautiful *psst* she really isn't fat but its fun to say so ;) She also has the most absurd idea that she is tall when obviously I'm taller :D

I don't know what I'll do without you, and I don't want to find out.

P.S I love you fatgirl :D

I Dedicate this song to you.
Claude Kelly - Falling Up

In my darkest
You were the only light I remember
Tried your hardest
Made me feel alive
Now I can’t forget ya
What you found
Was a lost lonely heart
Torn into pieces
With you I feel like myself..

Nothing but gold when we’re together
You were my one forever
Feels like I’m falling
But I’ll never touch the ground
Feeling so right when I’m around you
How can I live without you
It’s like I’m falling
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down
Falling Up, Falling Up, Falling Up
I’m Falling Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Falling Up
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down

Without trying
You knew the words to say
To save me from myself..
I can’t deny it
Never felt this way
Not from no one else
What you found
Was a lost lonely heart
Torn into pieces
With you I feel like myself..

Nothing but gold when we’re together
You were my one forever
Feels like I’m falling
But I’ll never touch the ground
Feeling so right when I’m around you
How can I live without you
It’s like I’m falling
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down
Falling Up, Falling Up, Falling Up
I’m Falling Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Up, Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Falling Up
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down

Who says we going have to fall down
Who says we going have to fall down
Cause I’m going up with you
Who says we going have to fall down
Who says we going have to fall down
Cause I’m falling up with you now
I’m falling up with you now

Falling Up, Falling Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Up
Falling Up, Falling Up, Up
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down

Nothing but gold when we’re together
You were my one forever
Feels like I’m falling
But I’ll never touch the ground
Feeling so right when I’m around you
How can I live without you
It’s like I’m falling
I’m not falling
I’m not falling down

My Epic Adventure of Writing Letters to Myself because I Just Love Talking to Myself that I have to Write it Down.

Wow. Great Title huh? LOL.
But yeah. For the next 30 days expect a letter corresponding to the day below. Hehe I feel so smart using the word corresponding :D

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Wish me luck :D

Koishiteru :)

Haha. So for the past few days I've been watching Cardcaptor Sakura all over again ^___^
And last night I finished the whole thing. It was late at night and I do a lot of thinking. I just couldn't help but notice every single time that Syaoran said something sweet to Sakura I started tearing up... I just love that couple, they are so cute and adorable. But I couldn't tell if they were happy or sad tears.
Near the end of the Second movie. In order for The Nothing to become a Sakura card. It must take the most important feelings of someone it chooses. In the end it chooses Syaoran's love for Sakura. If it makes sense it means that he will lose all his feelings for Sakura. What moved me the most was that he comforted Sakura saying it's okay, because even if he loses all his feelings for her, He'll just fall in lose with her all over again :3

Even if I'll lose this feeling, I'll Just fall in love with you again.
-Syaoran Li; Cardcaptor Sakura Movie 2: The Sealed Card

But In the end it turns out it didn't affect him because Sakura's love for him negates it from happening. At this point I was crying and crying but I don't know why. It's meant to be a happy thing right? So why was I crying?

Got out some photos and went back in time

No. Its happening again. All over again. Not to me though. To someone very important to me.
Watching it happen before my eyes, and not able to do much about it because the situation is much more worse.

People like you should just die. Why? Why must you people exist. It's like you exist just to destroy and trample on everyone that you envy. Maybe you wouldn't be so full of hate and jealousy if you didn't feed off other people's happiness. YOU. KNEW. YOU. SAW. How happy they were together. And you decided to take that away from them. Such selfish people shouldn't exist.