Sunday, August 29, 2010

Like the snow, it just quietly keeps accumulating

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- my tears won't stop
And so I wish
That I had never met you

For the past couple days, I've been having this reoccurring dream.
It's at night and I go out to explore a forest. When I reach an open field in the middle of the forest, I look up into the night sky and gently snowflakes starts to fall. I become hypnotised by its beauty and fall asleep.
When I'm asleep I just know it that there is some sort of presence that is watching me. Then I feel that there is someone is holding my hand. It feels so warm and familiar. I just don't want to let go. But, of course like everything else in my life eventually they do.
When I wake up I'm surrounded by a blanket of snow. I get up and see footsteps all around me and one that leads away. Instinctively, I follow those footsteps. I'm practically running because I just want that warmth again.
It leads me out of the forest and up a hill. As I ascend the hill, I just get colder and colder. When I reach the top I see that from beyond the hill is just flat ground with a beautiful blanket of snow with a trail of foot prints that lead to the horizon. I see on the horizon the tiniest speck. By now I'm running. I really want that warmth. The running feels never ending. But eventually I reach just a few meters away from the silhouette. There I start to collapse from the cold, and just before I black out once more I see him turn around and smile warmly at me. But his smile falters as he sees that I'm collapsing.

I wake up after this point every time. I want to know what this means. I want to know what happens after. Because I've never had such a 'normal' dream before. Yes, this is classified normal. It doesn't involve death, dolls, loneliness or teachers asking to add up bingo scores :)
I really want to know...

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