Day 7 - Ex

There are so many things that I want to know, so many that I don't know where to start. There are so many things that I want to mention, again there are so many that I don't know where to start. I don't want to say anything that risks any friendships or relationships so I'll keep this clean-ish.

First and most importantly, I wish and want you to know that I LOVED YOU, I really did. So much it was bliss but so much it hurt. You must have thought that I didn't care or trust you. In fact, I did care. I did trust. And I told you that. As long as you didn't abuse that. It crushed me when you did. But in the end it was true. No matter what you did to me. No matter how much it hurt. I Loved you. And when you left me. I still loved you. I didn't want to cause you any more problems so I did the mature thing to do and we agreed that its better off if we weren't together.

And when I found out that you had already moved on. I tried to be happy for you. I really did. I mean you seemed so much more happier with her. And seeing you smile was good enough for me. It just hurt because not one of you told me, and you two were both my friends. Maybe you did that for my sake, but I don't know. Maybe if you told me I would have coped better. Because finding out myself just tore me up inside.

And now, we can finally be on talking terms again. I'm really glad but I'm really worried about you because you pretend like everything is okay but I can tell that its not. I just hope that you will come to the point of trusting me again to talk about how you feel. I missed those days when we just told each other about how our day was. Because then I knew what you were thinking. You probably don't realize it but you are very hard to read and mysterious.

I hope you will find true happiness :)

PS. Thank you for everything. I'll treasure all those moments that we had together. I just regret that they will never come alive again. But I will say this again. I hope it comes alive for both of us, for when we truly do find happiness :)