Cause I never saw it coming, I should have started running a long long time ago

Hey guys. I haven't blogged in a while and i just feel like typing. And I guess reflecting on myself a bit and what better way to do that than doing a challenge? But guess what? I am going to do it all in one go :) well hopefully I can.

1) Go to iTunes and list your top 25 played songs
Love Like This - Varsity
Hero - Drew of Varsity
Like I Always Do - Drew of Varsity
Wedding Dress (English Cover) - Kevin Lien
Right Back Where I Started - Varsity
Be My Valentine - Jackie Boyz
Love Like This - SS501
I'll Be There (English Version) - Taeyang of Big Bang
Make You Love Me More - Varsity
Heart & Soul - ZYR & iLLMaTiCc
Shattered (MTT Version) - Trading Yesterday
My Last Serenade - Joey Moe
Over You - Chris Daughtry
All I Want is You - Drew of Varsity
Baby Baby - Big Bang
What I Really Want to Say - Varsity
Pieces of My Heart - Riz
Just a Dream - Nelly
By Chance (You & I) - J R Aquino
Let Her Go - Varsity
Babysteps - Varsity
Breathe Slow - Alesha Dixon
Lights Off - Jay Sean
I Love the Rain - Claude Kelly
I'm Your Guy - Varsity

2) Something you are scared of admitting.
Haha. I said this only a couple of weeks ago. I won't go into too much detail cause like I'm still scared of what people might think so yeah. I had like a few. I'm only going to say one of them though :)
Well, like when I first got my L's I had a lesson with my dad. I drove into a tree. Just because I'm an Asian woman driver doesn't make me a bad one. I drove into it on purpose.

3) Write about Trust. Do you trust too easily? Do others trust you? What do you do if someone breaks yours?
Trust is the the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed.
Yes, I am too trusting, too gullible in fact. I trust wayy too many people, sometimes I wonder if I should be more careful. One day it might bite me in the buttocks. I do hope I am trustworthy. I've been told that I am too honest, therefore I am not trustworthy because I will not lie if a question is stowed upon me. Truth is, I lie for the benefit of others. I'm truthful about myself though, but bear in mind everyone has a few secrets, I think I still have my share.
Even if people do not trust me, I don't really mind. I don't see how knowing gossip and stuff like that benefits me except for the social life. Which lets face it. I don't really have :L
If someone were to break my trust. I wouldn't hold a grudge, I'm too nice for that. I might be mad for like a few hours or so but that's about it. I doubt if a huge secret was spilled about me that half the people told will know who I am so yeah. And how will it benefit them? Nothing much really. Just unnecessary information about some random I guess :L

4) Describe what you wore today.
Well I went to school today, so just my uniform :O
Right now I'm wearing my homey clothes that I sleep in which is composed of a polo shirt, stripey cardigan and trackies.
I'm going to talk about what I wore on sport day cause I really liked that outfit :D
Our theme was where's wally so lots of red and white stripes :)
I wore a red and white striped tee. Over that I wore my red plaid shirt.
Then I wore denim shorts, which is unusual cause I don't really like denim shorts, I prefer cargo ones hehe.
I also wore knee high stripey red and white socks with my pair of fake Converses lol.
But my favourite part of my outfit was my beanie :D its just so awesome ^___^

5) Post your favourite quote.
So even if you stumble and make mistakes, it's not useless. Think of it like fertiliser, sure it may feel like crap now but it will help you grow.
- Fruits Basket

6) Most cherished memory.
I feel like I should post lyrics here. Cause like I've posted this memory before :) And I'm sure most of this stuff is repetitive.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday.

They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday.

7) A letter to anyone that you are scared of saying to their face.
To My Dearest Super Special Sexy Awesome Someone :)
I like you. I really do.
I pretty much say it to you all the time when I get the chance. You just think I'm joking though.
It's sad you know. I have always liked you, the feeling never disappeared. I was just not allowed to say and express it anymore.

I was only just getting better.
My confidence was finally coming back.
My self esteem wasn't so low anymore.

Thanks to you, tonight it all got drained away.
I once again feel so god damn useless.

CHEERS MATE :D:D:D

Fuck You Breaking dawn.
It's all your fault that Monsters Inc 2 is being released later.

Stupid Homework

I blame late nights studying up, that my eyes feel like they are dying.
I'm not sure if I have awesome vision anymore ):
If I were to get glasses it would be pretty awesome. I like wearing them
But I am so Asian. That I have the flattest nose ever. If I do ever get glasses they would slide right off...

It's true, I'm stuck on you

I… can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave the love behind


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


You’ve kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I’ve tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you


Now loves a broken record that’s been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we have to play these games we play


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you


Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
Don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you

Haha well today I updated my music, well not really. All of it was old school music but ah wells. I added around 1800 songs to my music library ^^ Wooh I'm gonna have fun

I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think at all.
Honestly it feels like I ain't living no more.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell

So past two days. I have been experiencing minor stomach aches that last the whole day. I barely could sleep, I've just been half asleep. That's the time when I'm most susceptible to nightmares.
I also occasionally get short lasting sharp pains in my liver and heart. Oh yeah and the big thing that shall shock you the most is my loss of appetite. I don't feel like eating anything. I have skipped at least 3 meals from the past two days

I think something is wrong with me :)

So I'm sorry if I had been cranky all week. It just hurts to live.

KYAAAAAA~

HEY WHATS UP GUYS?

Long time no seee xD well not really, I see most of you guys but not in the internet ;) ooh that sounded naughty ;D Lol dunno why but that sounded like Natalie Tran. She's so cool.

"This is an E card for two thousand and ten. This is an E card for family and friends..."
-Natalie Tran

ANYWAYS I'm not high or anything I SWEAR! Well maybe a little. I drank my own iced coffee before. I think I put a TAD too much sugar. I wonder what type of drunk I'd be :L

I just wanted to update but I doubt anyone reads blogs anymore?
So anyways.I started Year 12 :O It seems pretty chilled. I HAVE SO MANY FREES! I don't like it cause I'm spending to much cash on food... Ah wells at least I have more time to do homework now.

In the holidays I had a massive clean up for my room. You see my dad put in floorboards in my room. It's no longer vinyl. It looks pretty much the same as the vinyl though its just a little lighter in colour. I got rid mattresses in my room and donated them to the salvos :) And I got rid of a really old wardrobe in my room. There is so much space! But but guess what? I get a new wardrobe soon :D Yesterday I went to Ikea and found a nice one but it was out of stock ): They said it will be in-stock again of the 17th so fingers crossed!
On the side note, when I grow up. My house or apartment is going to be entirely made up of Ikea furniture :D WOOOT. I'm gonna be so stylish (H) you bitches are gonna be so jealous :) haha just kidding I need money first :)

Oh and the last thing that I still haven't really shown anyone is that in the holidays I thought it would be fun to start crafting something. I decided to make a plushie :D On the test run I made one of myself. I realised after that there isn't something about me that makes me significantly, ME. I mean when I show you my plushie it could be anyone that has black straight hair with a fringe. That's like 80% of the Asian population. I put a 'G' on the shirt but does that make a difference? No not really. That G could stand for anything. Ah wells. I'm happy the way it turned out. One days when I can be stuffed I'll make you guys one too :)

I dunno why I never made pants. Maybe I should lol.

Anyways Imma off now. Better do some work :) Oh yeah and HAPPY VALENTINES DAY :D

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